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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:09 pm	All the things that make u mad nd the bagage in ur past, dont leave much room 4 a girl like me 2 be What if you slept? What if in your sleep you dreamed. And, What if in that dream you went to heaven and there plucked a strange and beautiful flower. And what if, when you woke you had that flower in your hand? ahh.... what then? so im geussing its time for an update. I dont even know if any of my friends READ this thing.. i donno so i geuss im just gonna type. Summer;s ending soon, and its kinda depressing. Im kinda soupt and nervous. Its my seinor year and im really scard. I was thinking man wasnt i JUST a freshmen like last year? Well apperently not. All people i know are gonna be gone. All the cliks are probably not gonna be at school in our seinor class because its our last year and what does it matter anyways? We probably are never gonna see anyone every again. Thatd make sence right.. right? So many things have changed. My high school life came and went as quickly as i snap mah fingas.... its werid. I donno maybe im just talking outta my ass... ive made great friends, my summers have been awesome and i wouldnt.. well almost wouldnt change a damn thing. It would be great though to have at least "one go back button" in your life. Id go back to the summer of my freshmen year. Everything seemed "okay" then. I like this boy. This boy likes me. But it;ll never happen. It makes me sad Ya;ll are gonna fucking LOVE this one... Richie called me. After what, four months of not talking to me... he just calls me. He got a new cell so i didnt know it was him. and of course i didnt amswer so i called back and said " Someone called me?" and he says "yea" and im like " okay.. well maybe it;d help if you told me who this was?" and he says "Richie" and im like "richie.. as in Holiday?" "no" me " well it wouldnt happen to be Olsen would it.. cause then id be talkin outta my ass here" he says "yea.. richie olson"... im sitting here.. wanting to cry because i cant handle this. Ive just gotten over the fact that hes NOT IN MY LIFE... im okay now.. i can listen to our song and not cry because i know im gonna be alright.. i dont need him in my life anymore... and what does it do? He calls me. Im glad and im suprised... and i sure as hel miss him... but hes never gonna call me again i know that much.. so why the hell does he have to go and call me? Just once... just once and im back to the pit and still falling HARD mind you and it seems like he just doesnt want me to get back up. I hate that i miss him so effen much... it might be better if he did decide to call me, and id know it be okay if I called him... but i cant.. i gotta just let it go. Man the other side of me is extactic that he called me. Im happy that hes like ooho yea i had this girl once and he remembers me.. like he actaully still thinks about me. Okay i need to get off this subject This is catastrophic..... The sky is deep so dark When i look up, i fill with fear. If all we have is what lies here, this lonely world, this troubled place, then cold dead stars, and empty space... Well, i see no reason to carry on, no reason to laugh or shed a tear, no reason to sleep or ever wake, no promises to keep, and none to make. And so at night I still raise my glass to study the clear but mysterious sky that are above us, thats always there. Are you there, God? Are we alone? Current Mood: crushed Current Music: New Strings.. Miranda Lambert (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
3:17 pm	Yess.. no more rain! I looked away then I look back at you, You try to say the things that you can't undo, If I had my way I'd never get over you, Today's the day I pray that we make it through. Make it through the fall, Make it through it all. And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just want sit and stare at you. I don't want to talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just want cry in front of you. I don't want to talk about it 'Cause I'm in love with you. You're the only one I'd be with till the end. When I come undone you bring me back again. Back under the stars, Back into your arms. And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just want sit and stare at you. I don't want to talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just want cry in front of you. I don't want to talk about it 'Cause I'm in love with you. Wanna know who you are, Wanna know where to start, I wanna know what this means. Wanna know how you feel, Wanna know what is real. I wanna know everything... Everything. I don't wanna fall to pieces I just want sit and stare at you. I don't want to talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just want cry in front of you. I don't want to talk about it. And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it. And I don't want a conversation I just want to cry in front of you. I don't want to talk about it. 'Cause I'm in love wth you I'm in love with you, 'Cause I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you. Ive had that song stuck in my head all day long... and no its not about richie... Im over him... or at least thats what i keep telling myself Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: avril (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 14th, 2006
8:03 pm	We some motha-effen GANSTA's! so i have to say that today was a great day. I didnt think about richie at all today... Mollie started my day with going to dunkin' donuts b4 a race... lol.. that was fun Jillian made it great. And so did brittany.. and it sucks that i just met her and shes leavin in 2weeks.. im so sad soo0o0o... we went swimming... yes.. swimming down at first beacha nd it was fucking great. really cold... but it was madd fun... i loved today. Nothing can ever take away what a great day i had. ::sighs:; my heart still hurt... but it doesnt when i dont think about it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:13 pm	Life aint always beatuiful... but its a beatuiful ride. 1.Some days I miss your smile I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles And I wish for just one minute I could see your pretty face... but life dont work that way. 2. You destroyed me. I opened up to you and you KNEW that.. but hence you still fucked me over... and then lead me on... thanks alot. but i still cant deal with not being with you.. its really hard.. but you;ll never understand that will you? 3. You are my best friend and i fucking love you so much for that. Id be really extra lost without you You have been though so much with me, and i you. I serisouly dont know what i would do without you... thanks! i owe you everything and we better be friends for EVER! 4. I have the BIGGEST crush on you. But i could never tell you that cause im scard of the reaction.. and i just got outta this relationship, and i dont think that i could deal with another one at this moment. But i wanna be friends. Maybe more then friends someday... TALK TO ME! 5. We just met and your wicked cool the beach was madd fun. We should chll b4 you leave 6. We have mad shyt in commen.. and i really like you. I like talking to you and i love listening to you talk. you have a really ausome accent and thats so cool 7. you.. make me sick. Like i throw up in my mouth a little everytime i see you. 8. Im glad that we are friends now... i know we had our issues back then.. but im glad that we can share something eye to eye.. its kinda sad that it is this that we share but hey at least its something right? I never ment to take it out on you.. i think i was just doing that cause i couldnt get threw to your bf.. and i figuared if i made you realize it.. maybe things would change. I was always just trying to help you. 9. Im kinda sad that we arent as close as we used to be. Well i mean we never were really extra close.. but ya know. Soft ball that year was wicked fun, and we had major insiders i think we should chill more often cause well i miss you and your s****hy self. ::sighs:: 10. i have nothing to say to you anymore. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Fall to pieces (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
4:33 pm	Offically missing you... tima All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go ‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away And today I’m officially missin’ you I thought that from this heartache, I could escape But I’ve fronted long enough to know There ain’t no way And today I’m officially missing you Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you Said every little thing you do, hey, baby Said it stays on my mind And I-I’m officially... All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears From looking at your face on the wall Just a week ago you were my baby Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at all Well, I wish that you would call me right now So that I could get through to you somehow But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say that I-I’m officially missin’ you Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you Said every little thing you do, hey, baby Said it stays on my mind And I-I’m officially Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby But I see there’s something I just can’t do From the way you would hold me To the sweet things you told me I just can’t find a way to let go of you Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you Said every little thing you do, hey, baby Said it stays on my mind And I-I’m officially... It’s official Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah And I-I’m officially missin’ you Current Mood: depressed Current Music: are you happy now? Michelle branch (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
5:40 pm	so... LoSt heh... Happy FIVE months Richie......... *tears* Current Mood: drained Current Music: same as b4 (Comment on this)
5:24 pm	Technically... does it REALLY count as cheating?? I think hes got another girlfriend. Even though he tells me left and right theres nobody else yadda yadda.. he still loves me yadda yadda... But my friend saw him with ANOTHER girl.. holding her hand and well thats when i stoped listeing cause i didnt wanna hear what else they had to say. So does that count as cheating? I dont know. He tells me he wants me in his life, and that he.. well actually i dont know anymore. We still talk... and we still sometimes say i love you when getting off the phone. But we dont see eachother anymore. So is it cheating if your telling somebody you still wanna be with them.. but go on and get another girl? This sucks. I cried. Im really hurt and todays suposed to be 5 months. I really miss him a lot. but i dont know HOW to tell him that cause well.. becasue ive tried. I miss him lots and i cant bring myself to move on But i have to because he has... but then again i didnt SEE him with MY eyes ... so i cant believe it. I wont. I dont. But im afraid to ask him casue im afraid of the answer. But i still should. Maybe ill go on like i didnt know. but move on with my life. Just my life... im not gonna get another boyfriend cause i relly love richie... if he wants me back.. ill take him back. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: My dad (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
6:57 pm	Im begging you Im begging you Im begging you to be my escape! Ive bit the inside of my cheek 50 million times to day... and i wanna cry cause it hurts.... ... actually EVERYTHING hurts Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: relivent k be my escape (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
7:25 pm	Memories suck. Weather they are good or bad they really really suck.. and they always end up bring tears. Anybody ever notice this? I dont wanna start school.. but im pretty soupt that Mollie is finially ALMOST home lol.. shes in Conn. at the moment.. and tomrows her Brithday... yay.. sweet 16 woot woot. I feel like i dont know anything any more.. like i have nothing, even though i know that i have everything. I got my wisdom teeth taken out friday.. OUCH! lol.... I love my baby... 12.10.05 *muah* Solve for x you+me= x JRO+BHN= x "Cowboy take me away Fly this girl as high as you can Into the wild blue Set me free oh I pray Closer to heaven above and Closer to you closer to you" ..i wanna walk not run... i wanna be the only one for miles and miles cept for you and your simple smile.. yea that sounds good to me. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Watching Hannah Montannah (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
8:02 pm	Life isnt always beautiful.... But is a beautiful ride. I agree with CT.... you really need to talk shit out with ppl before jumping into conclusoins.. or making a wall up before you know whats actually going on. Cause if not it can cause you to over react. And well lets face it... thats not good. I believe in sleeping in.. I believe in giving 100 precent when you only have 80 I believe in love<3 arguing, and jamming out by yourself in the car!!! I believe in kisses on your forehead. I believe in long kisses, - smiling till your cheeks hurt and laughing till you cry... I believe in having someone tell you your beautiful, having someone play with your hair-and swinging on swings with you-and running through the rain.. I believe in MIRACLES and random acts of kindness. I 'believe in eating far more than serving sizes suggest, saying hello to anyone and everyone, & second chances and passion x3 "Cowboy take me away Fly this girl as high as you can Into the wild blue Set me free oh I pray Closer to heaven above and Closer to you closer to you" maybe i should stop worrying and life a little.... ..i wanna walk not run... i wanna be the only one for miles and miles cept for you and your simple smile.. yea that sounds good to me. Current Mood: drained Current Music: cowboy take me away (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
7:23 pm	Maybe Baby Please I would like to take this moment to tell you that its going to be long because i just need to write things out.. its not gonna be very interesting.. but please read and feel free to comment please. This weekend was really really bad. But its okay. So the past maybe two weeks have been almost really good. Me and richie have been awsome...It all seems fantastic... but going out tonight with richie... i donno it was somehow... veryvery .... different. Maybe it was because we hadnt seen eachother in a long time (2weekslol) but doesnt distance make the heart grow fonder?? Maybe it was casue it was monday.. or it mighta been because he was having an extra bad day..Or couple of days.. I dont know.. but it.. it it wasnt akward like our first night out.. but it wasnt just good. I think it was cause he was in a really bad mood. I donno... but im just scard to get my heart broken so maybe im just being paraniod. It felt soo good to just sit there in his arms today.. i missed him so much! I love his car sooo much, casue like when we go to the beach to watch the sunset.. or we just go to watch the waves.. i just scoot over and i can lay with him. Its uber awsome. But he hates his car.. we arent gonna be able to do that in my car... darn. I dont like a lotta people. they are all just really starting to bug me alot. Man i cant wait to get outta high school. My life is just starting and i want it to just all fall into place and let me get a job.. and just be with richie. Me and him... always. Its great not to feel so numb anymore.. i love it.. i wanna scream.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man..... i have lots more to say but i dont wanna jynx it by saying anything so ill update on thursday, by then i should know everything. night *muah* Brenna Current Mood: giddy Current Music: get no better - cassidy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
7:01 pm	Happy Brenna Nunes Day everyone!!!! today is now brenna nunes day... well at least thats what everyone was telling me... today was good. lost my voice from yelling and coughing... havnt found it yet. I love my boyfriend very very very very very very very very much. He is the greatest. *muah* ::sighs:: i love being me. and i love love love love love my friends.. yes i do.. haha.... anyways how was everyones day> gah... this weekend is not gonna be exciting neithor is the next couple of weeks.. i think im failing like 2 classes ooho well.. not much i can do about it right now... comment back guys!! x3 its ya birthday lil mami get yo kodak on!!! Current Mood: Ima Slut??? okay! Current Music: Perfect Situation - Weezer (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
4:18 pm	Well, I love you more then anything in the world. Love your Baby Girl This is my song guys... this is MEEE Someday she wants a big ol' house Sittin' on a big ol' hill And a mile long tree lined driveway For her big ol' Coupe DeVille Yeah, someday she wants a big ol' bank account With too much to spend But right now all she wants is a man With a big ol' heart Who can love her like nobody can Big ol' kisses that go on and on And never end With a big ol' smile He'll fill her world with laughter Size matters, size matters Someday she wants a big o' ring With a big ol' rock that shines And a big ol' walk-in closet With shoes of every kind Yeah, someday she wants a big ol' boat She can lay around gettin' a tan But right now all she wants is a man With a big ol' heart Who can love her like nobody can Big ol' kisses that go on and on And never end With a big ol' smile He'll fill her world with laughter Size matters, size matters With a big ol' heart Who can love her like nobody can Big ol' kisses that go on and on And never end With a big ol' smile He'll fill her world with laughter Size matters, size matters Size Matters (someday) Joe Nichols Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: cowboy take me away - dixiechicks (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
7:40 pm	Ive Lost My Mind...Let Me Know If You Find It I really really miss stacie Im hungry pink tutu;s and light sabers are the best! School sucks sometimes when people talk to me i dont really hear them i also never understand comics from the newpaper :: i laugh at a joke three times. First when its said. Second when someone has to explain it to me, and last 5min later when i UNDERSTAND it :: SINGING REALLY LOUDLY AND RUNNING AROUND is very fun my friends are much too confusing, but life is better when you are confused. I FORGET EVERYTHING! People who know what they want humor me, cause i have no idea what i WANT. i enjoy vacumming I MISS STACIE PARKER...... So i have been thinking lately. At this time last year was when i meet richie. Man i sweated this kid. Only problem was... he had a girlfriend. Go figuare right? He was in my study and i was always flirting with him, we played uno with the fellas.... tyler/chris/wheeler/&/zach man that was fun :: i really miss last year :: After school ended i didnt think that i would ever see him again. The only time i talked to him was when i asked him if i could wear his hat, which mostly i never succeed unless i stole it from him. Alass, the end of the year rolled around and chris had a graduation party. We stopped by richies house to see what he was doing. I called him, and he came out the door. Then his girl came out the door. I sat back down in the back seat of the car and didnt talk at all. I was jelous. I remmeber looking at his house sayin hmm... im never gonna see the inside of that place...... well geuss what?? I have. We go out now. Hes ausome, georgous... no georgeous is an understatement... i think i love him....... Hes everything a girl wants. When i think abbout it it scares me when i think about it cause like not even a year ago we were just friends and i was fantasizing about it. I geuss wishes really DO come true. When i hang out with him its so much fun.... and im really falling for him. March 10th in like 2 weeks we;ll be going out for 3 months get 'em brenna! yeaaaaaaa..... lol.... i just needed to get that outta my system ... talk to ya;ll later Current Mood: amused Current Music: get no betta :: our song :: (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
11:49 am	VALENTINES I LOVE PAT HURNEY...... he came to my house and delivered two roses to me... awww... thanks pat... i love you yessssssssssss Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: belly danccer (Comment on this)
Friday, January 13th, 2006
3:34 pm	:: shake dat laffy taffy :: This past month has been madd fun. Ive spent all my time with Richie mollie and chris. Ausome. We have soo much fun together. Over vacation we saw HOW MANY MOVIES MOLLIE?? lol..... ggod freakin times. I wanna go and see hoslte but im afraid to casue its mad scary but thats probably gonna be what we are doing. Anywho.... Friday : movies/iceskating Saturday : Richies/ Amanda;s party Sunday : Mall with mollie richie taylor and sabrina mari-AH! Monday : idk... sleeping in??????? get soupt for a three day weekend yeaaa Anwyas mollie dont sweat that jacket... you;ll just buy me a new one.. lol... heh.. anwyas anyone have any good plans this weekend? hmm i have had a very very good month. Get soupt... school is almost over... on the 20th we will be spending our last semester for the seinors... :: which is richie:: *tears* ima gonna miss him, ohoo well that just means he can come and piock me up from school... ooho wait no... caue i;ll have my licnse... so Im bored whats new with everone?? x3luvs Brenna Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Getcha Getcha (Comment on this)
Friday, December 23rd, 2005
10:09 pm	rockin around the christmas tree... and have a happy holiday! mistletoe hung where you can see.... Yea yea i know this is old news but over the past couple of days things hit me.... hard. when eddie broke up with me thats what he said to me. "OOho well brenna, shit happens" i thought that was the meanist thing anyone could ever say, expecialy after what happened. but over the years ive learned hes been right all along. and this is one of those..ooho well... move on shit happens. and i get it. I just needed to write that down somewhere... me and jon broke up for all you unkowners... and christmas is right around the corner... yay! im soupt... leave me some sweetness please. night all x3 brenna Current Mood: calm Current Music: christmas man! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
4:20 pm	ooho weeeee WOW drama drama drama... dont even bring the drama to my lj please... cause this isnt my fault im the victim hurrr.. anways sunday will be me and jons 1 month im soupt lol... see dan i can last more then 2 weeks you fag! Friday night : homecoming game Saturday afternoon : movies with jon... saw 2! :yikes: Saturday night: girls are coming over getting ready for homecoming, homecoming, then ihop with amanda jon sasa, then sleep ova at manda's house... Busy Busy Busy... hit me up with some plans guys... comment GO RHS!!! JUNI0RS7 i love you Jon Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: play something coutry (Comment on this)
Friday, October 28th, 2005
4:22 pm	I love you is that okay???? the boys and girls club dance is tonight... and the haunted house is actually REALLY good this year... i helped out yesturday it was fun. I got to see joe devin and ronnie for the first time in a loooonnng ass time... but it was still cool.. i miss them alot... maybe ill swim this year... So there is a show tonight.... its gonna be great 12 MALBUROUGH STREET doors at 630 show starts at 7 3 bucks free food wear a costume! Anyways im going by myself if Jon doesnt come see whos there.... then if its gay im not going to leave early... Im still wondering if i should wear a costume or not, dont kno if i want to. Life is going... okay if i dare say it... I really really miss stacie Hershey's bar;s taste really good this year, agreed? Pictures came in today Im hungry ooho hersheys bar..... pink tutu;s and light sabers are the best! School sucks speaking of how much rogers sucks, anyone notice we had a fire drill during a blood drive? Jons hott....falling tooo fast for him for my own good justins jelous thats why HE started the rumor about me cheating.... loser I MISS STACIE mollys grounded stupid fucker.... michelle those pics came out soo great i need you here.... its lonely...... alright thats enough.. im gonna go and sleep... I WENT TO THE K-WEST CONCERT!!! it was fucking bom-o! omg! i went with hillary and kristina... and it was the greatest thing that has ever happened.... cept for the simple plan and arvil concert me and stacie went to... but it was really funny.... eww these kids were somehting sooo much pot behind us i think i got high off the fumes... it was gros... and everybody was breatheing everybody elses breathe... uhg that was a little gross i was soupt to actually breathe again!! didnt get to sleep till like 3 or 4 tho... and i didnt sleep last night eithor... so yea . a little tired i am!!!! COMMENT PPL!!! <3 brenna Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: rihanna.. if you need me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
12:35 pm	Am i More then you bargined for yet...... Man am i tired!! Last night was soo much fun. Hung out with Jon til like 9.... then went and slept over amanda's house.... it was a good.. yet VERY cold night. Tonight Im babysitting... then going over sunny's house. OOMG!!! there is CONDOM coustume at wal-mart that i wanna get... i wannnnna be a comdom.. lol... thatd be great lol..... Okay... so im FINIALLY clearning up a little. I have allergies (spelling?) and its sooo annyoing.. well at least they will be over till spring. :( So yes... anyways I was suposed to make like 3 phone calls like a hlaf hour ago.. so i better go and do that.. and i will SEE YOU ALL TO.NIGHT!!!! love always. B-Nunes aKa. Brenna Bob Current Mood: drained Current Music: fall out boys (Comment on this)